I. Am. Not. In. Control.

I’ve been trying to figure out why I’m so defeated and tired…😴 Oh yeah!!! …because 90% of the things I do are new, pushing me to make people think, breaking molds around me, questioning personal agendas, building a new foundation for my family, and LOTS of extra steps in the grocery store/Target (I can’t find…

Gathering Place

Tonight I wandered through Target. It felt WONDERFUL. I haven’t been out alone with no timeline, in FOREVER. I seriously feel like a brand new person. I was driving home, and the Lord revealed something to me in our mission here in the Midwest. It was as if Jesus threw a bag of bricks on…

Focusing on the Way God Intended Me to Be

I worked and continue to work my butt off in counseling. I have focused so much on becoming the person God intended me to be. In this season we’ve entered, I feel Satan constantly trying to take it away from me. I sense more and more of myself vanishing now that we’ve moved. I know…

Cooking

Tonight, I cooked. It was something so simple. Something that many people dread. Yet, it’s a task I love to do. Unfortunately, I haven’t desired to do it lately. Missing my kitchen has taken a toll on me. Today was different. I NEEDED time today to focus on something I love to do. BOTH my…

I’m Mad.

I know with every ounce of my body that God is calling me here to the Midwest,  because we have so many wonderful things coming our way. God has revealed so much to me in the past few months and I’m so ready to live our mission. BUT… I’m mad. I feel like I’m swimming…

Bread in a Handbasket

Today, I made bread. I’m no rookie to baking. I even had a blog dedicated to my cooking experiences. I have been making food from scratch for about three-ish years. I found myself really enjoying the homemade meals when I had my first son. (No, I’m not trying to gloat. I’m giving my backstory.) Baking…

Level Up

Well folks, I’ve leveled up! ⏫ I’m happy to announce that I’ve officially started a new season in my life… …again. Luckily, this past season was only a year. I wonder how long this one will be? I questioned God so strongly this past year when Mike was looking for a new job that was…

The Black Hearse

Today I went to pick up my son from preschool, and the church next door was finishing a funeral. I saw the cars. The black hearse. The car behind it with what I assumed were the family members of the deceased. Immediately my heart sank. I feel so deeply for those people. To know that…

Lucas – He. Will. Move. Mountains.

A couple months ago during our nightly prayer, I prayed for people in places that don’t have hot water. I prayed for a solution to our yellow water as well when we first arrived in the Midwest. These little prayers led to a big discussion in our bedtime chats about water in other countries. We…

God vs. Satan

The last few weeks have really opened my eyes to so many moments that have caught me off guard. I’ve had events filling me with tears and full of defeat. There have been other moments that had me strong and ready to follow Christ in His plan. One day, I’m feeling full of the Holy…