The Canvas

To some this is just a picture. To me, this is much more. Today, I layed one more piece of my stubbornness down at Jesus’ feet. Though I thought I already did that, clearly I had one more layer to let go of. You see, this picture has been in a box in the kitchen…

Faith

Has this move been easy? No.Do I feel like I belong? No.Are lots of things different than the NW? Yes. I miss my food.Do I love it here? Yes.Is there a learning curve? Yes.Do I miss “home?” Yes.Has God clarified our mission? Yes.Do we have land to start? No.Are there any leads? No.Do we feel…

Crackers

When I bake, it’s more of a therapeutic time for me. It’s a time for me to tune out the world and focus on the ingredients, the measurements, the feel, the kneading, the taste, the smell. I put my heart and soul into the meals I make for those I love. It’s a way for…

Putting My Foot Down

Yesterday, I blew my lid over the most ridiculous thing. Mike asked me to call Verizon and get my new phone activated. Just that little request put be over the edge. I yelled. I said some things I should’ve have. I said some inappropriate words. Why? All because I was asked to call Verizon! Clearly,…

Shelter in Place Promises

I want to address my absence for the past few weeks. I’ve been feeling really odd about blogging during this awful time in the world. Seriously, as I write this, someone is dying. It feels awfully insensitive to be sharing my deepest thoughts about something so minuscule compared to life and death.  We are now…

I’m Mad.

I know with every ounce of my body that God is calling me here to the Midwest,  because we have so many wonderful things coming our way. God has revealed so much to me in the past few months and I’m so ready to live our mission. BUT… I’m mad. I feel like I’m swimming…

Bread in a Handbasket

Today, I made bread. I’m no rookie to baking. I even had a blog dedicated to my cooking experiences. I have been making food from scratch for about three-ish years. I found myself really enjoying the homemade meals when I had my first son. (No, I’m not trying to gloat. I’m giving my backstory.) Baking…

Level Up

Well folks, I’ve leveled up! ⏫ I’m happy to announce that I’ve officially started a new season in my life… …again. Luckily, this past season was only a year. I wonder how long this one will be? I questioned God so strongly this past year when Mike was looking for a new job that was…

The Black Hearse

Today I went to pick up my son from preschool, and the church next door was finishing a funeral. I saw the cars. The black hearse. The car behind it with what I assumed were the family members of the deceased. Immediately my heart sank. I feel so deeply for those people. To know that…

I’m Not Jealous

My best friend is pregnant. Though I’m OVER THE MOON excited for her, I can’t help but feel a little sadness for myself. P.S. I’m not jealous. Why would I feel sadness for myself? I have two adorable little boys. I’ve done the first time mom thing, and I’m now doing it again with my…