Level Up

Well folks, I’ve leveled up! ⏫ I’m happy to announce that I’ve officially started a new season in my life… …again. Luckily, this past season was only a year. I wonder how long this one will be? I questioned God so strongly this past year when Mike was looking for a new job that was…

The Black Hearse

Today I went to pick up my son from preschool, and the church next door was finishing a funeral. I saw the cars. The black hearse. The car behind it with what I assumed were the family members of the deceased. Immediately my heart sank. I feel so deeply for those people. To know that…

I’m Not Jealous

My best friend is pregnant. Though I’m OVER THE MOON excited for her, I can’t help but feel a little sadness for myself. P.S. I’m not jealous. Why would I feel sadness for myself? I have two adorable little boys. I’ve done the first time mom thing, and I’m now doing it again with my…

Vulnerable

Vulnerable. What is that really? According to the Merriam Webster dictionary it means, “capable of being physically or emotionally wounded.” Wow. Just reading the definition of vulnerable is scary. Who would want to be open for attack or wounds? Not me! Yet, here we are… Being vulnerable. Opening up to people who we want to…

New Year Intentions?

I was recently asked by a friend what my intentions or goals were for the New Year. I was kind of taken aback. I didn’t know what to say. I’m not much of a person who does resolutions. I’m the type of person who takes everyday as a new opportunity to be better. I don’t…

The Fourth Year Missing You

Today marks the fourth year. Four years since I lost you. In reality, I lost you a lot longer than four years ago. I lost you more than once. I lost you after you’d physically already left. I just keep losing you. Each year, each memory, each exciting chapter in my life I’m a little…

Did I just say that?

Lucas received a gift at Sunday school today and I’m over here bawling. I couldn’t have asked for a better place that meets all our families needs/wants/desires. For those of you who know, it’s been a struggle for me to find a place of worship. Mike is as Catholic as they come and I just…

My Last Day.

Today was the last day. I walked through the doors to my counseling session for the last time after four and a half years. The last face to face conversation with the one person in my life that truly and fully understands me, believes in me, and pushes me to keep fighting the good fight….

Does anyone really care?

Honestly, the past few days I’ve been debating whether to share my thoughts about this past month. I thought to myself, “Does anyone really care?” “Is it really worth sharing?” “Is this more for me than anything?” Then I realized… What does it matter? Stop getting in your head and go for it. So, here…

31,536,000 Seconds

31,536,000 seconds. 525,600 minutes. 8,760 hours. 365 days. 12 months. Exactly a year today. I totally didn’t plan my post today to be about this, but here I am. Writing about my crazy year of refinement. The toughest season of God refining myself and my family. I’m tired. Like, dead tired. When will we graduate…