God vs. Satan

The last few weeks have really opened my eyes to so many moments that have caught me off guard. I’ve had events filling me with tears and full of defeat. There have been other moments that had me strong and ready to follow Christ in His plan. One day, I’m feeling full of the Holy…

Trusting in God Pt. 1

Here we are… another month, another moment to reflect on my progress as an individual. –Wow, that sounded textbook. I’m not going to lie, this month has been filled with so many emotions. I have written this post, deleted it. Written it. Deleted it more times than I can remember. I’ve felt defeated one minute…

You were HARD 2019

Refinement. That is my word this year. So. Much. Of. It. By the beginning of the year, I was terrified of what the future held. I figured we were doomed. I felt hurt, angry, sad, but above all…WORRIED. So much of MY plan wasn’t working out. So much of what I thought we needed to…

SLOW DOWN.

Last day of month calls for my monthly reflection in this season I’m in… There is one thing I keep hearing from the experienced parents out there.. 🛑 Slow down. 🛑 I totally agree with it. I totally want to take action. I totally try to. Yet, I still find myself rushing. I find myself…

My Secret No More.

It’s the last day of June, so it’s time for my lesson post! This month has been more of a prideful month. I’m so proud of my progress as a human being. My mental health has been something I’ve really noticed this month. When I had Lucas, I lost myself. I tried so hard to…

Breathe.

Well, I’m two days into June and have yet posted what I’ve learned in May. This is my life in a nutshell. Late to the party, tired, and trying to gather all my thoughts. 🙃🤪 This last month I learned one thing. And one thing only. Breathe. Yes, just breathe. I’ve had to remind myself…

Grace. LOTS of it.

Only one primary lesson I’ve learned this month… GRACE. A whole bunch of it. Specifically to MYSELF. Pre-Benjamin, I struggled to keep up with Lucas. I felt guilty that I needed to sit down often, that I couldn’t get on the floor easily anymore, and that I needed a daily nap because I was TIRED….

Gratitude

It’s the last day of March and it’s time for my monthly lessons and refinement update. This month I’ve really been focusing on things to be grateful for. Seriously. Every meal I’ve been able to provide for my family. Every bill we were able to pay. Every item in the house we have that makes…

Order.

I sit here and think about this last month as I reflect from my monthly refinement… This month went by so quickly. I’ve been in the lowest of the low mentally this month. I’ve gone through some serious homesickness. I’ve missed my friends so badly. I’ve missed my old house more than ever. Not the…

Drowning.

Last day of the month calls for my monthly lesson update. It feels like an eternity since I’ve done this. Although, it has only been a month! One month. Last month at this time I was in Washington. I was comfortable. Yearning for more, but comfortable. I had my supportive friends and community. Today, I’m…