As Mother’s Day is soon upon us, I wrote this two years ago and I still feel all of it. I still think of the family in WA and grieve parts of my own extended family at times. If you are feeling any of this, I want to say that I SEE YOU. I FEEL YOU. I GET YOU. Especially right now when we can’t be together.
I sit here with mixed emotions today. I’m blessed with my boys who I wanted so so badly, but I’m also stewing about other things… I’m thinking about the family sitting next to me at church today. The ones I see every Sunday. The ones who have four children and no mother with them. The ones who you know have a story but it’s not my business to ask such deep questions. The ones who sit there with a solemn look on their face when the Priest hands out flowers to all the Moms. The ones who you can tell prays hard with the Priest when he acknowledges all the emotions of this day.
I sit here thinking of my childless Mother’s Days that I so desperately wished I was finally expecting a little one, but God had his own timeline. This used to be a day I’d cry and cry like so many are today.
I sit here and think about the Mother’s who’ve had to bury their child. The parents who gave birth, and said goodbye all at once. The parents who never got to meet their little ones.
I sit here and think of all the people who desperately wish they’d felt that unconditional motherly love but didn’t get it. The ones that feel like there is a missing piece in their heart and no one can fill that void.
I sit here and think of all the people who have a great relationship with their mother or children, yet can’t be together for whatever the circumstances may be. Those who feel lonely, I just want to say “Happy Mother’s Day” to you.
I sit here and think of all the other types of Mother’s out there who I didn’t describe and even those that choose not to be a mother.
Today, I think of all the mother figures. You may not have a child that came from you, but that doesn’t mean you aren’t a motherly model for someone else.
I want you to know, that I see you. I pray/send positive vibes for you. I think of you often. Not one moment do I take this mother role for granted, because I know you’re out there wishing you had what I had. Not one moment do I wish it all away. I take this job very seriously. This is my life’s calling. I will make you proud.
Happy Mother’s Day to all of you. You deserve to be celebrated today too. ❤️
With honest intentions,