I was recently asked by a friend what my intentions or goals were for the New Year. I was kind of taken aback. I didn’t know what to say. I’m not much of a person who does resolutions. I’m the type of person who takes everyday as a new opportunity to be better. I don’t believe in waiting for the new year to happen for big change to begin.
However, I sat and thought about this question for a few days. What is something I really want to try and improve on this year? What is God calling me to do? Is there anything at this moment that I feel needs to be addressed within myself?
Here’s what I’ve decided for the year…
I want to be unapologetically me.
I have been brought into this new town, with no friends, and no connections for a reason. I didn’t want a clean slate, and I don’t think I fully have one. Nevertheless, I’m ready to start sharing my feelings and emotions spiritually, things I’ve learned in counseling, and my own opinions about matters that I would normally shy away from.
I know you might be thinking, hmm….that sounds a bit destructive.
I shared this thought with my husband. Here’s what he told me, Jesus was destructive.
I paused and reflected on that.
He was totally right. It’s not like God brought a baby into the world, called him “Jesus,” and expected him to be friends with everyone. No. He was called to do some HARD stuff. In the end, he paid for it through death.
So I prayed about this real hard. Is my next step to be a little bit “destructive” as some would say?
Now, before you get your panties in a wad about my comparison with the crucifixion of Jesus and my own story, know that I’m not going to be heading out into the world today throwing out opinions left and right, traveling the world sharing my truth, refusing to meet people where they’re at spiritually or emotinally, making enemies everywhere I go, and shooting for the end result of “being cast to death.”
I’m going to take this time to help open others minds to what the Lord has shown me.
I’m going to take the time to not really TELL others about some things I’ve learned but SHOW them.
I’m going to put myself out there and be vulnerable to others with less reservation. Normally, I stay reserved on my points of view until I know the person. Then, I guard some of my thoughts in a conversation because I don’t want to be “that person” who has a different point of view. Instead, I’m going to share little by little my thoughts.
I’m going to BE ME. No regrets.
What are YOUR intentions this year? Do you believe in a fresh yearly start? I’d love to know in the comments below.
With honest intentions,