Grief

*Long Post ALERT* – Say what?! Another lesson/reflection?! God’s timing, not my timing. 🤷 Grief. Ugh. There. I said it.  I’ve noticed lately so many of us are feeling a lot. There’s death all around us. We’re hearing of riot brutalities, military, natural disasters, COVID, old age, illnesses, etc.. We can’t turn on the news…

I Change my Mind

🚨 Long vulnerable post ALERT🚨 My friends, I haven’t done a monthly reflection/lesson in a while! In this new season I’m in, I haven’t felt the need to share all these with you all like I did in my last season. There’s so much going on in the world, and my gunk just seems so…

Our Dream

House update: We found one! We found our DREAM! It literally FELL into our laps. When I say fell, I mean…I was sitting here perfectly content in this moment we’re in. Then BOOM, a new listing popped up on my phone during dinner as I choked on my food listing all the details of this…

The Canvas

To some this is just a picture. To me, this is much more. Today, I layed one more piece of my stubbornness down at Jesus’ feet. Though I thought I already did that, clearly I had one more layer to let go of. You see, this picture has been in a box in the kitchen…

Faith

Has this move been easy? No.Do I feel like I belong? No.Are lots of things different than the NW? Yes. I miss my food.Do I love it here? Yes.Is there a learning curve? Yes.Do I miss “home?” Yes.Has God clarified our mission? Yes.Do we have land to start? No.Are there any leads? No.Do we feel…

Kidneys

Today my dad reminded me it’s been 11 years since he got a second chance at life with a new kidney. His exact words, “New life… New kidney.” He’s extremely grateful, as we all are. I mean, we didn’t think my dad would make it this far. I was planning a life without my dad….

Crackers

When I bake, it’s more of a therapeutic time for me. It’s a time for me to tune out the world and focus on the ingredients, the measurements, the feel, the kneading, the taste, the smell. I put my heart and soul into the meals I make for those I love. It’s a way for…

Mother

As Mother’s Day is soon upon us, I wrote this two years ago and I still feel all of it. I still think of the family in WA and grieve parts of my own extended family at times. If you are feeling any of this, I want to say that I SEE YOU. I FEEL…

Putting My Foot Down

Yesterday, I blew my lid over the most ridiculous thing. Mike asked me to call Verizon and get my new phone activated. Just that little request put be over the edge. I yelled. I said some things I should’ve have. I said some inappropriate words. Why? All because I was asked to call Verizon! Clearly,…

Shelter in Place Promises

I want to address my absence for the past few weeks. I’ve been feeling really odd about blogging during this awful time in the world. Seriously, as I write this, someone is dying. It feels awfully insensitive to be sharing my deepest thoughts about something so minuscule compared to life and death.  We are now…